decision made

Over the past few months I've been struggling with an important decision. I couldn't decide whether to send Cale to half day or all day kindergarten. I know, this probably seems like a silly thing to lose sleep over, but I did.

You see, a few years ago our school started offering three full day Kindergarten classes and two half day Kindergarten classes. Most parents want their kids in full day and ironically I thought I would too. I just knew I'd send Cale to full day when the time came, no questions asked. I had always (selfishly) looked forward to the day when all three boys would be in school all day long. Many of the moms I know from school have said over the years, Hey Michelle, just ____ years left until you can send Cale all day....always assuming he'd go to ALL day kindergarten. Again, I did too.

Even at the beginning of this school year I posted about how Cale would be going to school all day next year. I didn't even think a thing about it. Of course I was going to send him all day. Why wouldn't I?

Well, now I know. When I started thinking about it, my heart just couldn't take it. Even Darren who doesn't usually doesn't offer his advice told me that he knew I'd regret it if I sent Cale all day (he knew I was really struggling with this one...and oh, he knows me so well!). I knew he was right, but I kept trying to fight it. I mean I was so close to having school days all to myself and I was going to get so much accomplished while the boys where at school! Maybe I'd finally stay caught up on housework and laundry...oh and don't even get me started about all the fun shopping days I could have. ;)

A week and a half ago it was time to make my choice. Cale is going to half day kindergarten and I am SO happy about it. No regrets. He's my last baby and I am in NO hurry for him to grow up. I've seen first hand how quickly time passes and I just refuse to rush it. This is the last chance I'll ever have to make the choice on full vs half day. I went with my heart and I am at peace. I know I made the right choice for both me and Cale. We will make the most of our last year of special time together (he only goes to school from 8-10:30 am). I will savor those moments because they will pass by in the blink of an eye. I am so thankful that he goes to a school where I get to choose. I chose and finally I am at peace. I can't wait to spend many more afternoons alone with my bug. Oh we're going to have fun.

As you can see, we take our days together very seriously! ;)